Sayings of mine

-it doesn’t matter how deep you cut, for the thought itself hurts that was a poor translation(mish b al zabt) of an Arabic version: لا يختلف الجرح مهما كان الكبر.....فالجرح سيظل اسمه جرح
i think i said this when i was in a3dady

-Wisdom doesn’t come from the extension of life, but from the closeness of its ending That was another poor translation of my Arabic version:
لا تاتي الحكمة من طول العمر ......بل من قرب انتهاءه
i think this was when i was in high school.

-The dreams I dream are way much better than what they show on T.V.
(That’s to promote siestas hehehe well its true I mean at least sometimes I get to see the ones I want to see instead of light and make up and I see everything from pain to sadness to happiness….etc )
i said this one last year

-Even the moon has a dark side
i said this, this year,

its funny to see how your brain grows or hehehe sometimes shrinks! anyway as usual no alterations have been done and there are some more but these are the ones that i remember, say the most and actually mean something to me.

My tree house

"Hey friend what are you doing here?”
“Get down from my tree house its too dangerous for you to be here”, my friend looks at me and says” well you’re here too”, I reply to my friend trying my best to convince her,” I built this tree house and spent what has passed from my life in it knowing all of its flaws and booby traps”,

And then I got so curious to know what’s wrong with her, for her to be here,you see you dont know my tree house its such an ugly place ontop of this high tree with a lot of its steps missing,and its very deserted that even birds will refuse to nest in it, and its a place where the only thing you get from the sky, is its burning sun, the only thing you get from the earth is its gravity followed by a hard fall,

So I finally get the courage to ask, “what’s with the black outfit and dull attitude?! “And my friend replies with a wry smile and says “I’ve always thought of black as my color it looks good on me right?”
I told her “why r you carrying all of this baggage around with you?” and she turns around and says “what baggage?!” Thinking that I must have lost my mind, I asked “why are your words coming out of your head and not heart and how come I see the reflection of oceans though we’re in the middle of a desert?! “
she tries to change the subject and talks about little stuff, you should of seen her, she looked like a giant hiding behind a tiny tree, anyway I couldn’t help but interrupt and say “do you take me for an insensitive fool??!!, Do you actually think that I would be in a middle of a storm and not feel, see or hear the rain, or even see the lightening or hear the thunder?! Or that i wont be able to feel the wind storming at my face and pushing me away?! Did you think that I wouldn’t realize the absence of the sun or miss its warmth?!

What do you take me for?
Blind? Well if so I can hear,
Deaf? If so then I can feel,
Insensitive? Well… I guess…, I guess I am an insensitive fool then at least in your eyes, i.e. equal to any other human being walking on this planet, and not worthy of the word friend.

Anyway please go now and never come back, its almost dark and you wont know your way back home, go down , my hopes were on you to get me out of here or call for some help,
So go and leave all your baggage here where they’re suppose to be, and get down, trees aren’t for human anyway, and don’t worry I’ll follow you one day and we’ll meet on solid ground by Gods will”

ما نبيك و ما نصبر على فراقك i.e can't live with you, can't live without you!!

I bet you're wondering who I'm talking about, heheheh,,,
like every year a cat gave birth to some kittens in our garden.... and like every year she abbandens some of them... she usually leaves them when they are ready to live alone, but this year was different, this year she left two little kittens that are so totally clueless and smart at the same time, well anyway they are just always struggling to get into the house and they always follow us where ever we go and they jst stick like glue (yeah yeah call animal rights if you want to, but they're not what we call keepers, and dont be judgemental the good part is yet to come) anyway at first we felt sorry for them cuz they cry like babies, we gave them food and kept doing that, and then we suffered from how to get out of the house without them touching us, eventually we just got used to them, so whenever we opened the main door they would get out to the street and we would wait for them to get back in as if they were house resisdents, and one day my brother was taking some stuff out and he kept the door open for some time, and they got out as usual, but the problem is they never came back, and we were worried sick, and felt kinda of guilty especially my brother cuz like it was sort of his fault, anyway even dad started asking about them and kept asking me if I asked our next door neighbour about them, which I eventually did, and yes it turned out to be at our neighbours house, and heheheh they bothered them too, I mean you can't imagine how annoying they are but we still want them back, and we will claim for them tomorrow insha Allah.
You see some things can be annoying but loved at the same time

Ah........

That was a good "ah" not a screaming ah
yesterday we went to our monthly visit to our grandparents house and it was just ah........
well my grandparents (Allah yer7amhum) own a farm and since it is almost winter, the ground has turned green..
it was very relaxing, leave the view aside, the weather was again just ah.....
it was perfect, I felt soo relaxed and I needed it really,
on Thursday when we got there we found the rest of the family there and we sat down and just chatted and had a warm dinner, I slept early, woke up early, and slept again, and then at noon we went out to the farm and picked some oranges and lemons it was really a Kodak moment,
and the best thing about my grandparents house is that there are no creepy crawlers around especially in winter, amazing really, well I guess everyone has his/her own place that they feel comfortable in and that was mine.