One of them days

It was really just a semi-ordinary day everything was alright the weather was very icky and ucky yet i enjoyed it (mu3jeza) anyway i was on my way home, and needed to buy some sheets from a photocopying place in our college and something happened tht just suddenly clicked my mood, it made me so angry, tht i started to realize the bad weather... i had mixed imotions of sadness humiliation pittiness and most importantly rage, so i quickly went into the photocopying place cuz it so happens to be one of my favorite places, and i had to buy them sheets anyway so.. i got in there and said; "assalaamo 3alaykum" and they replied of course :'wa 3alykum assalaam wa ra7mat Allah wa barakaatuh" tht made feel much much better but apparently not enough!
i asked the gentleman for the sheets and he handed them over to me, i think it took him a while but beleive me at that time i ddnt really notice, nor mind, to tell you the truth if my brother wasnt waiting for me in the car i wldnt even mind waiting for another hour or two, who would..?! i mean imagine having an air conditioner and a peacful place wht more can one ask for except for my brother heheh :p.

anyway.. as i was saying i was numb for them total min.(s) i spent there, the man was talking to me but i ddnt seem to understand him as easily as i usually would, i had the papers in my hand i kept rolling them into tall cigarettes without feeling, and when the time had come for me to go after walking for sometime but before reaching the car i realized tht i cut myself, i caused myself one sore paper cut, tht tingled like hell, i was so mad tht i forced a paper into my hand, i cut my skin and ddnt feel a thing, i was so busy focussing on one thing tht i forgot another, all of tht lead to me hurting myself..

anger does harmful things, well not exactly anger,,no,, but occupying yourself with it and making it your priority thts wht harms most, yup it harms us and the ones around us, and all we're left with either way is pain

Bloody hands

have you ever tried to turn a page and get a paper cut in return...

or tried to sew something together and got tons of needle pricks...

how about picking a rose and then getting attacked by its thorns..

or cutting off something bad and wind up cutting off your fingers instead...

or maybe tried to brake the fall of something valuable -sometimes cheap - with your hands and it ends up broken and shattered in your bloody hands....

.....really?! neither have i :p

Yaaaaaaaaaaay

I repeat, yaaaaaaaaaaaay.....

I finally took the car for a spin heheh by Gods will i'll earn the liscense by summer, finally my brother showed me how to move the car, of course I only know how to go on first geer hehehe ^^ but i'll get there dont worry, you'll see just make room cuz IM COMING ,i jst hope my driving wont be as bad as my walking ;p, hehehehe

My land

Take me to the land with no borders, to the land tht welcomes you at any time, to the land that you feel great by its greatness instead of tiny, to the land that takes you high, high enough to see the shooting stars and make unlimited wishes, a land where i would jst love to lie in its folds and let it hug me while watching the beautiful sky, a land that showed me that the air that i was breathing wasnt air and the life i was living wasnt a complete life, a land that taught me to appericiate everything, take me to that land so i can ride on the most wildest horse and see where it will take me, take me to my land

Contagious smiles

i bet you have experienced a moment or time when you find yourself happy not for reasons that concern you, but concern others, where you find yourself smiling jst by looking at their smile,its really great and wonderful and rare, for to see that radiant smile on your parent sibling or friends face that has reached a very high level where it has become contagious, where you can see the tears in their eyes wanting to come out and feel the joy and lightness they feel, its jst great, i love tht scene especially on people i know and care about, im experiencing indirect happiness these days, cuz a great and awesom friend of mine is happy, well im happy too, but she let me reach that level of happiness that i wouldnt normally reach in such situations, and i would jst like to tell her im happy for your happiness and i hope it lasts forever and always (insha Allah deema ya Rab)

Sayings of mine

-it doesn’t matter how deep you cut, for the thought itself hurts that was a poor translation(mish b al zabt) of an Arabic version: لا يختلف الجرح مهما كان الكبر.....فالجرح سيظل اسمه جرح
i think i said this when i was in a3dady

-Wisdom doesn’t come from the extension of life, but from the closeness of its ending That was another poor translation of my Arabic version:
لا تاتي الحكمة من طول العمر ......بل من قرب انتهاءه
i think this was when i was in high school.

-The dreams I dream are way much better than what they show on T.V.
(That’s to promote siestas hehehe well its true I mean at least sometimes I get to see the ones I want to see instead of light and make up and I see everything from pain to sadness to happiness….etc )
i said this one last year

-Even the moon has a dark side
i said this, this year,

its funny to see how your brain grows or hehehe sometimes shrinks! anyway as usual no alterations have been done and there are some more but these are the ones that i remember, say the most and actually mean something to me.

My tree house

"Hey friend what are you doing here?”
“Get down from my tree house its too dangerous for you to be here”, my friend looks at me and says” well you’re here too”, I reply to my friend trying my best to convince her,” I built this tree house and spent what has passed from my life in it knowing all of its flaws and booby traps”,

And then I got so curious to know what’s wrong with her, for her to be here,you see you dont know my tree house its such an ugly place ontop of this high tree with a lot of its steps missing,and its very deserted that even birds will refuse to nest in it, and its a place where the only thing you get from the sky, is its burning sun, the only thing you get from the earth is its gravity followed by a hard fall,

So I finally get the courage to ask, “what’s with the black outfit and dull attitude?! “And my friend replies with a wry smile and says “I’ve always thought of black as my color it looks good on me right?”
I told her “why r you carrying all of this baggage around with you?” and she turns around and says “what baggage?!” Thinking that I must have lost my mind, I asked “why are your words coming out of your head and not heart and how come I see the reflection of oceans though we’re in the middle of a desert?! “
she tries to change the subject and talks about little stuff, you should of seen her, she looked like a giant hiding behind a tiny tree, anyway I couldn’t help but interrupt and say “do you take me for an insensitive fool??!!, Do you actually think that I would be in a middle of a storm and not feel, see or hear the rain, or even see the lightening or hear the thunder?! Or that i wont be able to feel the wind storming at my face and pushing me away?! Did you think that I wouldn’t realize the absence of the sun or miss its warmth?!

What do you take me for?
Blind? Well if so I can hear,
Deaf? If so then I can feel,
Insensitive? Well… I guess…, I guess I am an insensitive fool then at least in your eyes, i.e. equal to any other human being walking on this planet, and not worthy of the word friend.

Anyway please go now and never come back, its almost dark and you wont know your way back home, go down , my hopes were on you to get me out of here or call for some help,
So go and leave all your baggage here where they’re suppose to be, and get down, trees aren’t for human anyway, and don’t worry I’ll follow you one day and we’ll meet on solid ground by Gods will”

ما نبيك و ما نصبر على فراقك i.e can't live with you, can't live without you!!

I bet you're wondering who I'm talking about, heheheh,,,
like every year a cat gave birth to some kittens in our garden.... and like every year she abbandens some of them... she usually leaves them when they are ready to live alone, but this year was different, this year she left two little kittens that are so totally clueless and smart at the same time, well anyway they are just always struggling to get into the house and they always follow us where ever we go and they jst stick like glue (yeah yeah call animal rights if you want to, but they're not what we call keepers, and dont be judgemental the good part is yet to come) anyway at first we felt sorry for them cuz they cry like babies, we gave them food and kept doing that, and then we suffered from how to get out of the house without them touching us, eventually we just got used to them, so whenever we opened the main door they would get out to the street and we would wait for them to get back in as if they were house resisdents, and one day my brother was taking some stuff out and he kept the door open for some time, and they got out as usual, but the problem is they never came back, and we were worried sick, and felt kinda of guilty especially my brother cuz like it was sort of his fault, anyway even dad started asking about them and kept asking me if I asked our next door neighbour about them, which I eventually did, and yes it turned out to be at our neighbours house, and heheheh they bothered them too, I mean you can't imagine how annoying they are but we still want them back, and we will claim for them tomorrow insha Allah.
You see some things can be annoying but loved at the same time

Ah........

That was a good "ah" not a screaming ah
yesterday we went to our monthly visit to our grandparents house and it was just ah........
well my grandparents (Allah yer7amhum) own a farm and since it is almost winter, the ground has turned green..
it was very relaxing, leave the view aside, the weather was again just ah.....
it was perfect, I felt soo relaxed and I needed it really,
on Thursday when we got there we found the rest of the family there and we sat down and just chatted and had a warm dinner, I slept early, woke up early, and slept again, and then at noon we went out to the farm and picked some oranges and lemons it was really a Kodak moment,
and the best thing about my grandparents house is that there are no creepy crawlers around especially in winter, amazing really, well I guess everyone has his/her own place that they feel comfortable in and that was mine.

Top 3 babies

heheheh
Last Thursday I went to a wedding, and in that wedding I saw the most cutest things in that place, and they were three lille angels :) :) :)
and they were all just beautiful but I'll lay them out to you b tarteebaty
in third place was this baby boy who was about two years old and he wanted to escape from his mothers hand soo badly but she had a tight grip on him that he couldn't even move an inch and both of them seemed like they were used to each other, both of them knew what was going to happen, but the brave kid still tried anyway...
in second place came this angelic girl wearing a little brides dress that fitted her perfectly, and what caught my eyes was that she came in with her mother but not in her arms like the rest of the babies or running around, no... she was exactly behind her mother lifting the tail of her mothers dress and making sure it was straight and that it didn't get dirty, which was just adorable
and in first place,this little girl stole my attention she was just sooooooooooooooooooo cute the thing about her was that she had little bunny or hamster teeth heheheheh
and not only that, but she was eating in a cartoon way as well and she was the cutest thing I've seen those days -until recently-
and don't even think about feeling sorry for the girl cuz she's cute that's one, and cuz if her teeth were funny she'll grow and they'll fall and others will come through, heheh God bless the three of them wa ye7fudhum